Life's so fragile.
The word vulnerable is giving me goosebumps, perhaps because of this unpredictability that makes me feel so disturbed I've never felt this way before.

Picture above, my cousins from the dad's side.
And there's more missing from the picture. And let me tell you this, I don't usually talk about my dad's side because we all kinda have different frequency to life, all of us have different backgrounds to begin with, and there's more I don't have to elaborate.

But thing is, however different all of us are, there's this special element I finally realised in this big family. It's this "how far you may be but I'm always your cousin" thing. And wherever there's any gathering, emergency, all of us will be there counting on each other, silently.

And today, cousin's coma taught me a very important lesson.
The one that I never thought would be of course this unpredictable.
Well you see, he fell in the toilet, non-stop skull bleeding, and half his body is paralysed and now his in coma with half brain dead.

I'm so disturbed for the fact that he's young and I know I should stop thinking that only old people die (haha) but really never expected it to happen to someone so close to me. Plus the fact that I'm very emotional, little thoughts made me tear, his close friends, his girlfriend especially eh tell me what I'll do if it happens to my boyfriend. I'll probably kill myself, kidding but still oh my god I should just stop thinking now.

So please please Oh God, please keep him strong, let him live.
I'm praying for his best, for him to continue fighting for his life, and hopefully my friends, pray for the best for him to aye, because, really he means so much to me.

Doctor gave him 48 hours, but I hope he's strong enough to fight through this, have an artificial skull and continue living well hopefully as close to normal as it used to be.
Amin.

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